....because I want to see your face when I wake up every morning. I want to
cuddle inside the blanket with you sleeping by my right hugging me tight. I
wish to be able to listen to your heartbeat and your happy singing voice. I
want those eyes to look at me with awe each time I dress up to go out with
you. I want all those long hour late night calls when we are miles away....
and those silent beach side walks, holding each other’s hands....quite &
peaceful... I want a message from you saying “I miss you” for me to type
back “I miss you too”. I want to have all those arguments where neither of
us agrees to each other yet we somehow agree to a conclusion.
All your small little gestures make me fall for you over and over again.
Like when you hold my hand while crossing the road, because you already
know that I would be scared... and the way you keep me on the left when
we walk down the streets. The way you search for me in the crowd
because I get stuck, amused by the window displays of the shops.
I want to gift you things that would make you happy and receive few back
from you. I want you to laugh and have fun when we are with friends,
assuring that I feel special amongst them too. I want you to feel insecure
when I dance in the club and when other eyes are watching me. I want you
to get drunk and call me and speak your heart out because I know that
you open up only to me.
I want my mom to like you, because I like you. I want my dad to feel safe
when I am with you because he trusts you enough. I want you to ask me to
cook for you because you really like that special dish that I prepare. I want
you to let me mingle with your family. I wish for those long drives on the
highways with no destination to go. I want you to say “don’t go” and hold
my hand when the power goes off and its dark because you are
comfortable showing me your fears. I wish for us to support each other
when we go out of money yet have lot of love and blessings to fulfil our
needs. I want to fight with you over T.V. serials and you to buy me my
favourite ice-cream later for making me angry.
I am 23 right now and I wish to have the rest of my life, however long or
short, to be filled with all of these special moments with you and many
more. ‘You’ are unknown to me right now or maybe I do know you but am
unaware of the love. I know you have your own reasons of not coming out
now, may be its not time yet but I have faith in you, that you will not let me
be alone for long. I know you will come soon. Because a part inside my
heart already dreams of “YOU”
- Priya H. Rai
